Does it ever stop?

I like to think of myself a strong, smart, independent woman.

The last 5 days I have been in such a major depression. I can not seem to shake it.

I try to plan things with my friends to have some fun and when it comes time to get ready to go I start to get cancellations now I know my friends are not doing this on purpose but when your so far down in the dumps you start thinking there is more to it than what it is.

I hate to cry over stupid things but I can't seem to stop. Now you would think that since I work in the medical field where I see my doctor everyday I would be able to get some happy pills. My doctor says. "You don't need happy pills you just need to have some fun" I am so glad it did not pay for that medical advice.

I know things should get better but it is so hard to even try to think that way at the moment.

All I can say God help not to take an AK47 to work and kill them all...